Wow! What a powerful and heartfelt article! I'm sort of in your boat, Joe. I guess I find Christianity "triggering" too. I even wrote a book about it.
If you want to make sense of this monstrosity called Christianity, feel free to download my book. It's free from my website or on Amazon as well. It's a fun, easy, and often entertaining read:
FALSE WITNESS—How the Christian Church Built a Foundation of Lies
https://keithmichael.org