Mike, I want to thank you for taking the time to write all of this out. These are the same thoughts and feelings I had when I first realized that the Church had lied to me about GOD. I can tell that you are thinking about all of these things and that is all that I ever ask of anyone.
GOD is on the move. People are rediscovering the GOD Jesus knew; and that GOD is not pagan. I appreciate your thoughts. It sounds like you have begun a journey to find the true heart of GOD!